
One of my greatest blessing is my little man
Today is one of those days where you just don't want to go anywhere, stay in your pajamas and watch TV/read a book. Luckily I was able to get a little yard work done just before the storm because Christopher was home to watch our little man. I forgot just how much I enjoyed doing yard work. Something about it is refreshing. I am not sure if it is because the yard looked messy before and is now more appealing to the eye, who knows. It just felt good to get outside on a nice morning and do some type of activity. Now I am so out of shape that my body may be feeling it tonight.
As I sit here listening to the rain fall I can't help but think just how blessed I am. When I look at my life I can see so many instances where God protected me, held me, and guided me. I think in life I just go without stopping. The days have become a blur and there is so many times that I can't even remember what I did two days ago. But if I just sit here in silence with the only sound being that of rain hitting the roof my memories come back. These memories may be good, happy memories while at times they are memories of pain, and grief.
I watch movies and think just how boring my life is. There really is no action just the daily tasks that I no longer have to use the brain to do. How untrue is that. My life is filled with more depth than any movie can produce. I have felt happiness, love, pain, grief, jealousy, anger, peace, loss etc. all at different points in my life. There has been conflict with resolution and relationships that have ended.
Life has thrown me so many different trials and experiences. As I look back on them I can see where God played a large part in the direction my life took. I could have been a different person entirely just due to my understanding of my own human nature. Yet some how I see how God was by my side either allowing things to happen or just holding my hand. I would not be the person that I am today had it not been for him. He has blessed me beyond measure and continues to help my through my difficult trials. I know that if I continue to put my trust in him the pain that I feel now will soon subside. I will find peace among these conflicts and enjoy the blessings I do have.
Thank you Lord for all that you have done for me and yet to do. May you always be my constant in life.